Why do I do it?

Why do I do it? Every year I say that I am not going to feed into the commercialism behind the Christmas season and then I allow myself to be sucked into this relentless vortex, spiraling dangerously towards certain bankruptcy. I always feel as if I spend way too much for things that are absolutely unnecessary and unwanted even though I know it isn't so. Why do I do this to myself? Okay, I am being a bit melodramatic, but hey, if I can't vent here, then where?? I stated to the hubby today, "All of this work for one day, why?" I have always firmly believed that gifts should be given "just because" and for other special occasions year-round, however, Christmas gift giving makes me a little crazy. I think it's because I am "that" person that HAS to find the perfect gift for everyone on the list. You know the type, the one who always manages to give you that one gift that makes you break down into tears and ask "How did you know???" Yes, that's me and I think it's a bit of sickness. At some point I may decide to seek treatment for it, but until then, I will continue to give these gifts and suffer through the countless hugs, kisses, and thank-you's because I must. One day, some day, I will be on the receiving end of one of these such gifts and will recall this rambling and take it all back...maybe...Who am I kidding??? I'm probably one of the sappiest saps when it comes to getting presents....wonder who will tear at my heartstrings and cause the river to flow from my eyes this year??? Sorry for rambling...my mind is a big jumble of STUFF on a daily basis, it's absolutely ridiculous during this time of year!! Counting down till Christmas....16 days......